If She Wasn't Here

Just feeling a little emotional today, i don't really know why. (no i'm not pregnant...lol) Sometimes I just think of what Valerie went through, and it makes me emotional

If she wasn't here, I'd never know that she has blonde hair and big bright blue eyes.

If she wasn't here, I'd never know that her favorate food is macaroni! and how much she loves ice cream.

I'd never know that she loves to dance, even at commercials. And I'd never know how much she absolutley loves dogs, and pretty much all animals.

I'd never know how much she loves books, and that squirrel-nut-kins is her favorate stuffed animal (we still can't figure that one out)

I'd never know how much she likes to go outside and pick blow flowers. Or just pick up sticks and rocks in awe. I'd never know how excited she is when we go to Walmart or the supermarket.

If she wasn't here, Natalie would not have a big sister to look up to.

I'd never know how happy I would be to see her take her first steps, or reach any milestone.

I'd also never know that my heart could break into a million pieces as I watch her get wheeled into surgery. And the love, patience, and faith that I would learn as she had her journey.

When Valerie was diagnosed with CDH, she was given a 60-70% of survival. I was actually given an option to TERMINATE the pregnancy. Imagine? I never wouldve known any of these things. It just makes me sad that some people would choose that option, because I believe that every baby deserves a chance!